With a new baby on the way, I am bombarded with tasks that I feel must get done before her arrival in late March. I need to clean the baseboards, organize the stockpile, purge every room in our home. I need to schedule blog posts, hire in home and online help, clean up the office. There is so much that my mind is telling me that I need to do, when really, I want to do nothing.
I want to lay on the couch and relax, feeling my baby kicking me from the inside. I want to make Play-Doh castles and colour with my 2 and a half year old. I want to watch more movies. I want to go on dates with my husband. I want to enjoy my life before this new little person comes into our World and completely shakes it (in a good way, of course).
With about 6 weeks to go until the birth of our little girl, I have decided that it is time for me to slow down and enjoy every moment with myself, my family and everyone else that’s around me. I have declared these 6 weeks my “time of calm”. I will no longer rush, I will no longer worry, I will no longer try to cram 30 things into my days.
I am hopeful that these habits will continue once the baby is born, but as any of you with children would know, life is majorly shifted when you have a child. There will be many sleepless nights, many unfinished to-dos and more than likely, very few moments of calm. But – when those moments do come, I am going to savour every second of them.
So, how do I plan to slow down, relax and enjoy life more?
That’s just it – I can’t plan it. The only thing I can plan is to take it one step at a time.
Every day is a new beginning. A chance to start over and find some peace in my life. And today? Today I am going to sit. I am going to do a lot of sitting. I am going to read with my son. We are going to build forts and Lego houses and draw pictures of cats and hearts and circles. I am going to forget the laundry, forget the dirty dishes in the sink and forget what it’s like to be a work at home mom. I am going to enjoy the company of this little boy that we welcomed into the world almost 3 years ago. After all, he is the reason for everything that I do.
As for tomorrow, who knows. Ask me then.